Ok folks this is the big one - everything crossed for tommorrow. How effective has the chemo been and how much radio to expect. Now we do have to go to Clatterbridge - the big 'C'. I feel sick with nerves, I've been to the gym, had a healthy salad and not eaten anything remotely bad for me all day but I feel like I just pigged out big time and want to throw up. Drowning in anxiety whilst my alter-ego stands beside me holding out chocolates! (Bitch!). Nails should be down to the quick and are bizarely growing longer than ever in my entire life. Someone has asked me to go riding with them and I cant tell them I weigh much much MUCH more than they think - or would ever guess - another mountain to conquer!

Just so you know whats going on, whats happening, whats occurring down here in the Farmhill massive...

gibbering slobbering quivering shuddering gasping - hey hey hey get outta here babestation girls!!

ooops, sorry matron. I dont know what happened then, came over all unnecessary

u aint seen me, roighht?