Seriously tempted along with a zillion other blog virgins to do something along the lines of "captain's blog, stardate.." have managed to hold back somehow3 things that put life into perspective so far this week...A friend of mine has been on a ventilator on and off for almost 2 weeks now in London and last night she opened her eyesAnother friend told me how she thought she had lost her child during a fit on Christmas day this yearMy own child had to go for a general anasthetic this week and it was all I could do to stand upright, never mind be boring old fearless farty mumI want to try and hold onto that feeling of staring at the unknown and it staring right back at me and knowing where I live. But it seems to slip away like sand through the fingers when circumstances change and the sensation of living on the edge of terror fades. The only thing that's left is the ache in my stomach through taut nerves.I worry that I'm getting like the old folks, where life revolves around who's dropped off their perch and who looks shakey. Bit depressing for a first blog but it needed saying I think